Our Holidays so far

Alyssa sleeping, she was sick poor baby
My beautiful baby girl there is none like her.
She looks like an angel sent down from up above
She is so beautiful I can't believe how big she has gotten.

Moms nativity set
More of the nativity set
Have u ever seen such a beautiful baby? She is my pride and joy..... Can u tell?

For starters we had a great thanksgiving. We had my uncle Larry and his kids over from morley, then we had my other uncle pat here with his tribe and my aunt kim and her daughter and her hubby. Plus there were extras here too so man was our house crazy.
We got the tree up and my nieces loved it. They dint touch it was a good thing. My mom does a nativity decoration every year wich i love alot. So i took some pics of the tree and the nativity set. It takes her a while to do it but it is just precious when it is done. I got some pics of the girls recently. Hope you like them. Happy Holidays to ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Good News!!!!!!!

For the past few months I have been trying to lose weight. Me and my doctor made a guideline. She wanted me to lose it slowly so that way I can keep it off. She said if i try and workout alot more than normal i will lose the weight but then when my schedule calls for a different scenario I will gain it back and be right back were we started so we did things that will help me and keep it off. I did the thing i swore I would never do, I gave up my pop. I love pop. I went from drinking at least a 2 liter a day to having maybe 1 every week or so. Then I have been trying to eat smaller portions of food. It sucks when mom cooks so damn good but I am trying. So to date I have lost 17lbs. I am the smallest I have been since I started seeing this doctor. Over a year ago, so that is good. My next goal is to take a cheating way around me not eating breakfast. I can't seem to make myself eat in the morning so I bought some carnation instant breakfast. So I take 1 when i get up and I think that will help alot. Eventually when i get more money I might switch to 2 but for now it is good, slow and subtle. I have alot to go but I am excited none the less. The crazy part is I am losing it in different spots so you cant look at me and say oh i see where you lost it. I know in the last 10lbs I lost 4inches in my hip area. So I can tell by the way my clothes fit me but mom says she cant see it because she sees me everyday so to her I don't look different. So I just thought I would share this with you Thanks for the support. Love.....

The ranting continues

I know so many people right now who are suffering and I feel bad for complaining but I figure I might as well add in. I hate men, the one and only man I ever loved and believe was a true gentleman and someone I look up to was Jacob. He made ever other man I know including family look like crap. My dad is an ass, I wish he would grow up already and get over his crap. He swears he has changes since he and my mom split up and now to see him do the same damn thing again. It makes me angry cuz once again the ones who suffer is the children.

My news is I did not get the job at Judes but she really liked me so she is having a friend look at my app. I am going to look at a few other places. I just feel like all my air is being sucked out of me sometimes. I try to hold it all in but I swear one of these days I am going to blow and I can't see that being good for anyone. I have stuck to my water. I am proud of myself. I cant wait to see how well I am doing. Okay I suppose I have wasted enough time but, to everyone besides me with issues right now hang in there I have faith that the Lord is watching and he will not leave us in our time of need.

My Ranting

My self lately!
My baby
She loves pictures and wont stop posing so she goes from to the other to fast. LOL
Kenzie and her monkey face. She trys to copy auntie bb.





Wow I havent done one of these in a long time but maybe this time some one might actually read it. My girls are getting so big. Alyssa still acts like she hates me even though she has gotten closer to me she still likes pretending she dont like me. Kenzie of course loves me to death. Her new kick is finding spiders with me. She is every bit a tom boy as me but yet she loves to dress up with bb. We go on adventures through my back yard finding all the bugs and insects that we can. Eric and I had a fight so I havent been able to see them as much but he will get over it some day.

Carlos and I are really not together but yet we can't seem to stay completly away either. There is alot of drama there but I am trying to go by day by day. Who knows what the future holds.

This is it

Well I have decided to stop writing in my blog. I have been doing this since forever and the only one who really is faithful is Faith. Thanks by the way! I know there are people who come and check it out occasionally but they don't comment and what not so it is pointless. It sucks cause this way people could see the girls or my latest blurbs but I can't get anyone to come and check it out so I am calling it quits. I will keep in touch with the ones who are dearest to me. Love ya and thanks again Faith.

Heidi's Madness take 2

Wow I am sorry for not doing this in awhile I haven't really had much to put on here. So we are moving, originally I said the next time I moved it was going to be in my own place but I decided to stay a bit longer and go back to school to become an instructor. I like teaching and I love cosmetology so I think the 2 sound good. I am not sure if I will actually work as an instructor but it will teach me to correct mistakes and learn from a different point of view. I am excited I wanted to start on may 11th but with us moving and me being broke I don't have the application fees and what not right now so I am going to do the school thing in June. So wish me luck and what not. it has been almost a month since me and Carlos have been split so I have had alot on my plate and I am going to explode soon I can feel it. They say wont don't kill you only makes you stronger. LOL maybe but I am not sure still.

Easter and everything else!!!!!

Alyssa's goofy face
My silly self
Sara and Kenzie. Cute picture
Sara can you believe she will be 17 this year. I hate time.
Briana's always a cutie to bad the picture don't show her attitude.
Kenzie did not want to sit still.
My three girls, they are so precious.


Wow my Easter was great. I woke up and took a shower and what not, then I watched the tigers game. You know I love em. They were losing 0-4. Yeah but I kept thinking they just need to go to the bullpin and sure enough as soon as they did we took 6 runs in the bottom of the 8th and we won 6-4. Awesome game. Then we had mom cooking everything but the kitchen sink and that is why I am so big my mom can cook. We had my uncle and his kids here. It was nice because my aunt just passed away and this is the first Easter without there mother. So it was nice to have them here, and if that was not the icing on the cake my babies showed up and they were her long enough for eric to eat and me to take a few pics of the girls. So I hope the rest of you had a great Easter as well. There were other things that I couldn't possibly disclose right now but that is another day.

As for my new weight loss program. I have slipped a bit this last week because I knew Easter was coming but this week it is right back in it. I dont have a scale yet so I cant tell you how much I am down, but I have lost a couple inches in different parts of my body. So I am happy for that. Thank God for my site, they keep me going.

My Baby

It is no surprise to anyone that Kenzie and I are very close. I love Alyssa just the same but she has this weird sense of humor. She likes to act like she dont love me when she is here but if I turn the music on she comes a runnin. Or if I play her game long enough she will give in, but Kenzie loves me so much. Lately I have had her alot. For 1 she thinks she has to be here 24/7 and for 2 Jen needs a break every so often. I took these pictures of kenzie and I tell you if she isn't the cutest thing than I don't know who is.

Heidi's Madness

So this is my fat butt now I hope to
be able to show you a better picture some day.

So I have alot going on in my life right now. It is so weird how your stuck in your own issues you don't realize the people around you are in similar situations. My heart goes out to you. As for my madness I am pleased to tell you I am trying so hard to lose weight. I started the 17th. I dont have a damn scale so I cant report completely but I am trying hard. I have more than 250 fitness minutes in since the 17th. I found a wonderful program and I am so excited. My girlfriend and I have been walking an dI have been doing tae bo and regular excercise's. I am walking 2 miles three times a week. Anyways I am excited. I still can't manage to eat right. I have went so long eating just dinner that I can't force myself to eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks in between. Some day. Right now I just dont have the money to but all the stuff I need.

As for my job hunting it is horrible. I can't find anything available. I am turning that depression into my workout. If you know what I mean. It gives me a deeper consentration.

Oh and I went to get some movies the other day and I ran into my dad. It was nice. I havent seen him in so long. We talked for awhile. Even though sara stayed away dad at least got to see her. Hope to hear from everyone nobody ever comments on here anymore. Get with the program it don't take to long. Love ya!!!!!

My new goals

Well where do I begin. First of all I still haven't found a job. I have called and nobody is hiring. I am going to lower my standards and try again. I am disappointed but I figure the experience is going to be great no matter where I go.

I am also on this lose weight idea. I found this wonderful site where I can go and they are all trying to lose weight so we all give each other support. Some people on there have lost alot of weight and others have just begun. I am very excited. They have a nutrition plan and a fitness plan and other stuff. The track calories fo ryou and they have so much info and what not. Well I am going to try and put a 110%. Only problem right now is i need a scale. LOL! Well pray for me I need him to push me a bit. Love ya!

Baby Kaeden

Well I guess it helps to start in the beginning. Last year my cousin Jessica was having her first child. She asked me and my mom if we wanted to come for support. We agreed and her mom was there along with her brother. She had a beautiful daughter named Izzy. This time when she found out she was having a boy she asked us to come again. She is such a trooper. She could have had the baby at home and saved alot of money. She barley pushed and she was so good she makes other people look bad. She was so good. She didn't even brake a sweat. So her son was born at 7:50am on sunday the 8th. He weighed 8lbs and 10.5oz, 20 inches long. He is so handsome. He was so alert when he came out it seemed surreal. Even when they put that gunk in his eyes he was still looking everywhere and smiling and just being a good baby. So congrats bug and thanks for having me there with you. Love ya

Finding a Job

Okay so I thought this would be a bit easier. I have called around every where and no one is hiring. With the economy like it is most people don't want to pay anymore people. I could get a job working with my own booth but they are expensive. Until I get a bigger clientele that is not an option. So in the mean time I am waiting for some one to say yes.

On another note. I am about serious to stop writing these darn things. I thought it would be a great idea to let everyone be able to see and hear what is going on in my life and what not and the only true reader I have is Faith! Thanks by the way. the rest of you either don't comment or u look every once in awhile. So I figure why bother.

I got it!!!!!!

My License isn't it awesome!!!!!!!!!!
My picture of me trying to give a professional image.
My mentor Mrs. Vangessal, she is a wonderful woman who helped me alot.
Sharon my girl friend was a big help to me as well. Not pictured is mom and faith and plenty of other people who I don't have pictures of. Love you all so much.


So I went today and did theory. As soon as I was done they put a message on saying I passed. I practically ran out the door to the desk and said yeah I passed. She was already making my license. We took the pictures ahead of time. I was so excited. Not that i thought I would not pass but it was still quite a relief. I will receive the paper one in 7-10 days. I am hoping to start work soon. Thanks for anyone who had faith in me. I often wondered through this whole thing was I strong enough to continue on and make it to this point and the answer was clear today! Hell Yeah! Pardon my french. Love you all and thanks for the support.

First Part:

Well everyone knows I just went through a crazy time where I was going out of my mind. I graduated a while ago and I was waiting for eric to pay me my money, so I could pay for my state boards. As soon as he paid me I ran and got a money order and sent it on its way. I finally had enough and called them and said what is going on why dint I get any info? They were like we don't know. So they were like when can you come in I said asap. It was thur. He was like is Monday to soon? I said nope. So I went and I was quite prepared. My girlfriend Sharon helped me out the night before with some stuff. Mom bought me the rest of the stuff i needed. (Thanks again by the way.) So when I got there I was nervous. I was worried through the whole thing and even afterwards when I got home. I honestly was not sure how I did. They told us we would recieve something in the mail in like 2 or 3 days, or we could like the next day on the internet. I was curious so I looked a little while later and sure enough it was on there that I passed. WOOOHOOO!
So I called today and scheduled an appt. The soonest I could get in was sat wich is not fast enough but It will have to do. So thanks for your prayers and your support. Expecially the comments everyone posted on myspace and facebook and messenger. I know there is only a couple people who read this and even less that comment but I appreciate it all.

Waiting

Kenzie playing behind the couch. She is quite an active girl.
Alyssa what can I say about this picture. I think the picture speaks for it's self.
Now this is Alyssa. She is always eating but I guess not enough. LOL!
My babies are getting so big.

So I have been waiting forever for state boards. At first I sent them the background check money waiting for them to reply. Then I sent them the rest of the money on Monday of last week. So it has only been a week but I am so ready to take these tests. I have been getting stuff ready here at home. I am hoping and praying everything goes great for me at state boards. Prayers are most welcome right now. I know there are so many people right now going through a bunch of stuff but hold in there. We are so blessed and when we realize it everything else seems to fade away. My love to everyone who reads this and Thank you for spending the time to read and comment.

Life as of now

Where do I begin? Well I am getting ready to take my state boards. I am just waiting for Eric to pay me back and then I am going. I sent in my 40$, for the background check. So as soon as they process that then I will have the money to go and pay the rest.

On other news Kenzie is a little stinker these days. She is so spoiled she is doing the worst things. She busted Alyssa in the eye with her chair cause she did not get her way she has just been so horrible. Here I am on vacation for the moment and could have her here with me but I choose not to, cause she is almost unbarable.

Carlos is missing us very much. I am not sure if he misses mom or me more. LOL Anyways if you don't know carlos had to move out. I am actually doing good concidering all of the stuff going on right now.

Hang in there when your feeling down just remember there are plenty of people who are suffering worse. Love ya!

Their Back

B.B. on a horse riding along the coast. Rat!!!!!!!!!
Sara looks goofy but I got to love her. Those horses are so small. Big difference compared to ours in the states.
Don't the waves look great. Why they were on the beach we have had a crappy winter.


Yup my peace and quiet is over, their back. The all had fun while they were gone but they all missed us very much. Alex was pretty much all on his own the whole time so he had a lot to do and because he was all over the place he lost a lot of weight. If only i had a before and after of him. Sara lost a bunch as well. Not as much as him but close. B.B. lost a little bit but not like the other two did. Partly because she was on the phone here a lot. Every time I turned around she was calling u telling us she wanted to come home and was not happy. She was home sick. The kids had quite an adventure. Anyways I am glad to have hem back safe and sound but they can go back anytime. LOL!!!!!!!!

Still waiting

I haven't taken my stateboards yet I am waiting for eric to pay me back. Soon he should have his taxes and then I will get this ball movin! Just wanted to let you know what was going on.

Goodbye Aunt ilene

My aunt Ilene on thanksgiving 2008.

My mom is going to hate that I put this pic on here but my mom was being silly and my aunt much like her old self played along. My mom jokingly grabbed my aunts breast and then as she was pulling her hand away my aunt grabbed her hand as pulled it back and said hey that was kinda nice. My mom turned bright red as you can see but That was the last time I got to see my mom happy what came later was horrific sadness!

All of us on Thanksgiving 2008! You will be missed and I have you know I never realized how stubburn you were.

My beautifull aunt Ilene. What a difference cancer and 2 years can make. I will always remember you as my big breasted aunt ilene with your cigarettes in you flannel pocket and your sense of humor that skipped other family members and stuck to you and mom. You will be greatly missed. Even them damn doggs of yours became stubburn like you did. Some people have the bite marks to prove it. LOL! Love you and save me a spot with in heaven.

As everyone knows my aunt is now with our father in heaven. I just want to take a moment to say I know life gets rough and I know we all have our moment but some times we take life for granted. I am posting a picture of my aunt 2 years ago and a picture of her now. You will see the difference. Don't wait till the last day. Make sure everyone knows you love them today!

Ilene G. (Horton) Platt (October 19, 1960 - January 6, 2009) Guest Book Sign Guest Book

Ilene Gay (Horton) Platt, age 48 of Morley, passed away peacefully Tuesday, January 6, 2009 at her home with loved ones at her side. She was born October 19, 1960 in Grand Rapids, Michigan to Edward and Clara (Swolveland) Horton. Ilene married Larry W. Platt Sr. on July 16, 1977 in Rockford and they made their home in Grand Rapids before moving to Morley 25 years ago. Ilene attended the Stanwood Free Methodist Church. She enjoyed the computer, the outdoors, camping, puzzles, cooking and most of all being a home maker and taking care of her family. She is survived by her loving family including her devoted husband, Larry; 4 children; Larry Jr. (Savanna) Platt of Wheeling, W.V., Amanda Marie Platt, Annie Mae Platt and Shane Michael Platt all of Morley, Grandchildren; Larry Platt III “Tripod” and Nickoli Platt, 5 brothers; Eddie, Chuck, Bill, Pat and Leo, 7 sisters; Judy, Sue, Robin, Virginia, Darlene, Kim, Lisa and Molly, a dear sister-in-law and special friend Cindy Horton and many beloved in-laws, aunts, nieces and nephews.
Besides her parents, Ilene was preceded in death by a brother, Mike and a sister Maggie.
Cremation has taken place and a memorial service will be held 1:00 p.m. Saturday, January 10, 2009 at the Stanwood Free Methodist Church, 7486 Stanwood Dr.(corner of Pierce Rd.) with Pastor Wayne Cash officiating.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!

Jaylene wearing my moms eye wear.

Isn't she adorable? She put her self to sleep.

Happy New Year everyone! WOW where do I start. First thing is first. Not only is the first new years but it is Jaylene's birthday. She turned 5 this year. I don't know why when you want time to fly it drags on forever and when you want time to go slow it zips right by ya. She turned 5 and I can remember when she was little. Some of my more precious moments where when I lived in York Creek. She loved spending the night with carlos. So we would take her for the night and this one time carlos was watching King Kong. She loved the big monkey. She sat with him and watched the whole thing and for those of you that dont know that movie is long. She sat right by him and watched it. She kept thinking the monkey was gonna get hurt and she would get sad and hang on to their every word. Well Happy Birthday baby and may God be by your side always.

Now lets talk about the new year. Everybody always makes new years resolutions, and they never seem to do them. I know I am one of them. So this year I am doing something I want to do for me. I am going to try and go to church more often. I have been introducing Jaylene little by little. I think I am going to take her and her mother with me. Jaylene really likes learning and I think she would love church. I know I feel so much better when I go that I need to put my foot down and go. So thank you for reading my blogs and I hope this year I get more readers.

My babies

Okay so I forgot that I took these pictures of my girls. They just got their ears pierced a week or so ago and I forgot to put it on here. In my family we usually try to do it when their first born but jen and eric din't want them done that early. So my mother took them to get it done as one of their christmas gifts from her. They look great and the girls haven't played with them or anything. So just thought I would share that with you.

They are not the best pictures but they are cute no matter what!