Heidi's Madness

So this is my fat butt now I hope to
be able to show you a better picture some day.

So I have alot going on in my life right now. It is so weird how your stuck in your own issues you don't realize the people around you are in similar situations. My heart goes out to you. As for my madness I am pleased to tell you I am trying so hard to lose weight. I started the 17th. I dont have a damn scale so I cant report completely but I am trying hard. I have more than 250 fitness minutes in since the 17th. I found a wonderful program and I am so excited. My girlfriend and I have been walking an dI have been doing tae bo and regular excercise's. I am walking 2 miles three times a week. Anyways I am excited. I still can't manage to eat right. I have went so long eating just dinner that I can't force myself to eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks in between. Some day. Right now I just dont have the money to but all the stuff I need.

As for my job hunting it is horrible. I can't find anything available. I am turning that depression into my workout. If you know what I mean. It gives me a deeper consentration.

Oh and I went to get some movies the other day and I ran into my dad. It was nice. I havent seen him in so long. We talked for awhile. Even though sara stayed away dad at least got to see her. Hope to hear from everyone nobody ever comments on here anymore. Get with the program it don't take to long. Love ya!!!!!

My new goals

Well where do I begin. First of all I still haven't found a job. I have called and nobody is hiring. I am going to lower my standards and try again. I am disappointed but I figure the experience is going to be great no matter where I go.

I am also on this lose weight idea. I found this wonderful site where I can go and they are all trying to lose weight so we all give each other support. Some people on there have lost alot of weight and others have just begun. I am very excited. They have a nutrition plan and a fitness plan and other stuff. The track calories fo ryou and they have so much info and what not. Well I am going to try and put a 110%. Only problem right now is i need a scale. LOL! Well pray for me I need him to push me a bit. Love ya!

Baby Kaeden

Well I guess it helps to start in the beginning. Last year my cousin Jessica was having her first child. She asked me and my mom if we wanted to come for support. We agreed and her mom was there along with her brother. She had a beautiful daughter named Izzy. This time when she found out she was having a boy she asked us to come again. She is such a trooper. She could have had the baby at home and saved alot of money. She barley pushed and she was so good she makes other people look bad. She was so good. She didn't even brake a sweat. So her son was born at 7:50am on sunday the 8th. He weighed 8lbs and 10.5oz, 20 inches long. He is so handsome. He was so alert when he came out it seemed surreal. Even when they put that gunk in his eyes he was still looking everywhere and smiling and just being a good baby. So congrats bug and thanks for having me there with you. Love ya

Finding a Job

Okay so I thought this would be a bit easier. I have called around every where and no one is hiring. With the economy like it is most people don't want to pay anymore people. I could get a job working with my own booth but they are expensive. Until I get a bigger clientele that is not an option. So in the mean time I am waiting for some one to say yes.

On another note. I am about serious to stop writing these darn things. I thought it would be a great idea to let everyone be able to see and hear what is going on in my life and what not and the only true reader I have is Faith! Thanks by the way. the rest of you either don't comment or u look every once in awhile. So I figure why bother.